We are now on a yearly schedule for my daughter’s cardiologist. Yesterday was a good, if long (3 hours) appointment. The cardiologist and his staff were amused that my daughter brought her own pillow to the examination–they said that was the first time they had seen that in 20 years of practice.
We found out that valve replacement via catheter is now approved in the U.S. and I can only imagine how far the technology will go in the next 6-10 years.
I know I am so very lucky.
Still, the yearly recitation of the heart conditions on both sides of the family just became tragically longer this summer when my father-in-law, a good man and a loving grandfather, passed suddenly and unexpectedly.
And now that my daughter is four, her questions have become a lot more in-depth and probing and difficult to answer honestly, yet reassuringly and on an age-appropriate level.
I had an entire two days of:
Why doesn’t brother have to go to this doctor?
Why doesn’t he have a boo boo on his heart?
Why do I have a boo boo on my heart?
If they fixed the boo boo on my heart, why do they need to keep checking it?
What if it doesn’t look fixed?
Does surgery hurt?
If I have surgery, will they make all of me go to sleep or just part of me go to sleep?
If I wasn’t asleep, would it hurt? Why?
If I don’t have a valve now, why do I need one when I grow up?
What if they weren’t able to fix the boo boo when I was little?
If something happened to me, would you cry?
Did I dream when I was asleep during the operation when I was a little baby?
What did I dream about?
What is blockage? What is leakage?
Still, so lucky her condition was repairable. So very lucky to have a child who is alive and thriving and asking these questions.
And still so very scared sometimes.